may you be able to hold the suffering of others

and let it go where it needs to go

Dear Z.,

Tonight is the first night you’ll sleep without your mama since you were two weeks old, 4 pounds and ultraviolet in the NICU. She’s in that same hospital with gall stones and an angry pancreas, after a full day of being in lot of pain.

We waited too long to go to the ER; I chose Providence because it was closer, and that was a mistake. Your mam…